My daughter is studying architecture at UVU and she was there yesterday for a bit of Charlie’s debate. There were things being said by audience members that made her feel like there are better places for her to be. She left to her history lecture room that was the closest classroom to the Mr. Kirk. Only 3 minutes after her departure a shot rings out. She hid under the desks while other classmates locked the door after people ran inside saying there is a shooter. She stayed hidden for 30 minutes and sent text to us and tried to remain calm but fought back the urge to vomit the entire time.
Where does one turn for comfort when tragedy and death are so close? I feel that you turn to someone in your life that can ground you and make you feel like everything is going to be ok. This can be a physical person or a spirit. We all need a hero who is strong. I called up my two closest friends and was able to process with them and talked openly with them how I feel. I will not talk openly here online because I am pondering deeply how much I want to say publicly going forward in my life.
If any of you want to 1:1 chat with me, I am happy to respond to your replies to this email. I want to be there for each of you as a fellow human being who loves all people and tries very hard not to judge, as Jesus encouraged per my last email. I even have an app that allows for us to meet face to face asynchronously. Try me on Volley if you need some facetime 1:1.
I was the same age as my daughter on Sept. 11, 2001 when I watched in horror, from Italy, as my country was in crisis and confusion. Yesterday my daughter had her 9/11 experience along with many others around the country and the world. Crisis and confusion after an attack on human life will scar your mind and soul. Scars are what’s left after the healing, and they are beautiful. May we all heal as a nation, quickly. May a loving son, husband, and father’s death be a catalyst for more peace in this world is my prayer.
Much Love on this day of remembrance and happy 4:20 to all.
Scott X
I asked DALLE to create a healing image that could apply to most people who might be feeling confusion and fear. This is what was created. Worked for me. You know I love that Sun.
Appreciate this one!
I’m getting back from a vacation with people who mean the world to me. My phone was on do not disturb because the only people who I wanted to talk to were with me.
As I’m rolling back into town today, the texts, the news, the overwhelming emotions come flooding in.
A part of me wanted to turn back around and go back to that quiet peaceful week I just had.
But a voice inside me says- no, you needed this vacation to relax, reset and regroup, because now, there is work for you to do.
I don’t know the how, but I know the what. And so I’ll use this weekend to unpack- physically and emotionally and prep for the journey ahead. ♥️